How did I get here?

Sitting down and figuring out where you are in your life is an important step that many should be willing to take. To ponder upon your accomplishments and unsuccessful endeavors is very nourishing to the soul and mind. If we do not review our past, we may continue to make the same mistakes. It is important to remember that we as a person must decide our path. Noone else chooses this for us, not our parents, lovers, or friends; they may nudge us in a specific direction, but in charge they are not. Take responsibility for your own actions and you will begin to feel empowerment.

Allow yourself the humility to learn from your errors and to learn from others. We can learn so much from anyone we meet, but if you are not open to this opportunity you will lose a chance to grow and learn. Always love yourself and be true to you, before you can do this with anyone else.

So what's next?

When you think about your life do you feel content, or proud about where you are? If not than you need to reevaluate things and begin a change within yourself. I have been thinking about where I am and where I want to go. I am making strides to that future, but those I want to come with me are not so lucky. Sometimes you need to change your surroundings in order to fully grasp where you should be. Remaining in the same environment does not allow you the room to spread your wings and explore other options. Always remain honest with yourself to make the best decisions.

What if?

What if all you had was one day? Who would you want to spend it with?

What if you had to choose one person to spend the rest ofyour life with? Who would you choose?

What if you had just one chance to let someone know how you felt? Would you take it?

Lost--Poem by Djenepha Polynice

LOST



I am lost without you,
I am lost with you.
I lost myself with thoughts of us,
But you were lost in other lusts.
I gave you all I had and more,
But you chose to lie instead.
I thought our paths were clearly lit,
But it seems darkness persists.
I have forgiven, but I cannot forget,
The hurt you put in my heart and head.
I tried to lose the thoughts,
Instead you continue to lie and I lose faith.
Close is how I thought we were,
More like closed to what we fear.
You never let me in to share your heart and tears.
Is it because you never really loved me?
Is it because you no longer want me?
I do not like the way I feel,
And it’s because you disrespected;
Our relationship with your flirtations, and getting
numbers from perspectives.
Don’t you know that I’m the best?
You will find out when you fuck with the rest?
I thought I was lost, but now I see;
It’s you who’s lost, because you’ve lost me.

Where am I going?

Sometimes it's hard to focus. There is so much I want to accomplish, but at the age of 31 I feel like I am so far away from where I want to be. When you're in high school you think that 30 is far away, but it creeps up on you so quickly. You imagined what you would be doing, how successful you would be. But when you reach that point it seems like time is being lost and you are still not even close.

Why even bother loving someone?

Love can be so overrated at times. When do you decide someone is worthy of your love? Is anyone really ever worthy of that? Sometimes it feels so great to feel those feeling of love and we jump into those emotions before we see all of the faults the other person has and if you can deal with those flaws. Only time will tell.

Infatuated Love Phase

Infatuation can lead to several emotions that are not always healthy. Have you ever been infatuated with a person and just didn't really know why? This is a phase of love that usually does not last and can be harmful to the one doing the infatuating.